Just Me

        What defines a person? What is a personality vs. a persona? I don't know, I've been thinking about a lot lately. Who I am, who I want to be, things I want to change or keep about myself. Who really knows you, I mean deep down to the bottom of your soul knows you? Not many, I'm not sure if its a survival instinct to always keep some deeper part of you to yourself or is it something more? Shame, regret, fear...

     I've come to realize why so many of my friends or others in general don't understand me, the things I do, the opinions I express, principals I stand for, what motivates me, things in life I have a deep passion for. They don't know me, how could they? Ive gone through the emotional roller coaster that is life so many times I've been given a V.I.P pass that allows me to always skip to the front of the line. Not that others haven't had it harder than I, there are always those poor individuals out there whom I don't envy that have always had it worse. I'm not here to claim otherwise, I'm not even really talking to anyone in general. My only wish is that while I vent, ramble and theorize on here that something will catch your attention, something maybe you've been thinking about that's been nagging the back of your brain for days, weeks, maybe even years. That through my ramblings and such you'll see something from a different view that will allow you to piece together whatever that "something" is that's been bothering you. Then maybe, if you figure it out you can give me the answer to that secret question we've all been asking at some point in our lives..